Stay with me

Cried

2011-11-29T04:28:00.001+08:00

I can only cried to lucky and sashimi to slp!

My mind is set!

2011-11-24T01:14:00.002+08:00

Made up my mind, I know who I wanted. Decided. I wanna prove and show you how much i love you not just by saying, but proving, even u wants to flirt n have fun with whoever, no matter u eye on anyone. I deserve e punishment.This time round, I'll wait... Waiting for you, I'll prove and show you. You are the only want I wanted. I hate every morning wake up think of you before I slp I wish you r ard with me. I hate to drive pass your house everynight to see if you r home safelybefore I head home. No empty promises anymore. I meant what I said, I don't expect u to believe me now or anymore. This time I really mean what I said. I wanna be trueful to you from now on and show u, u r really evrerything.Coz I know I can't afford to live without you. You r really my one and ONLY ONE in my heart. I wanna know what r u doing everyday, how have you been, did u have happy day? Asking you how's your day. Like I always did. I wanna be there for you no matter you are up or down. I was e fuck up one broke ur heart over and over again,every now and then. But this time round, I'm really set up my mind to wait. No matter how long. No more empty promise. I meant what I said. I really do. And I'm gg to show and proof my love for u. As u r really all I care and love. Even u tell me, I've lost you. Still I'm gg to fight for the one I love. Even u r with someone else. When u R ,Just a call from you, I'll be there. Unless I'm with jb with ah hong. Even you wanna date afew ppl. I will still wait for the day hoping you will come back to me. I believe u not my love wasnt fake.
This time round no matter how long, I'll wait. Even u hate me. I miss us. Sorry for being fuck up. I believe nth is too late so long as we still love each other. Even u wanna move on, I'll still be waiting. Lemme show and prove it to you HH.

If..

2011-11-18T22:50:00.002+08:00

I want u to be e last, you willing to?
I wanna make u e last, do I get e chance?
Do you want to??

Runaway!

2011-11-15T04:08:00.003+08:00

Running away to a place with NO internet for sure, ok even have i'll try not to use it.
Doing crazy thoughts.

Stop listening and repeating to "just gotto go on my own way" cried and fall aslp everynight.
Stop gg home not soberly.
Stop popping sleeping pills.
Stop having one pack of KFC a day.
Stop saying "hey my friend" and pretending you are there to listen.
Stop thinking about your "careful" when i drive recklessly.
Stop having images of you in my mind.
Stop drinking half can of campbelle soup everyday with 7 chilli padi and dwell, and listening to mum nag, "每次喝一半就倒掉很浪费!!".
Stop avoiding Nana.
Stop thinking where are you.
Stop thinking what have you been doing.
Stop thinking have you got your meals.
stop thinking are you drunk again tonight.
Stop thinking are you thinking of me like how i'm thinking of you.
Stop thinking who are you are hanging out with.
Stop letting you mentally screwing me up.
Stop thinking about you.
Stop drinking 100+.
Stop emo-ing to those poor frens ard when i'm drunk.

[Gabriella]
I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps gettin in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
Is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I
Gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

[Chorus:]
We might find our place in this

World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

[Troy]
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

[Gabriella]
What about trust?

[Troy]
You know I never wanted to hurt you

[Gabriella]
what about me?

[Troy]
What am I supposed to do?

[Gabriella]
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

[Troy]
I'll miss you

[Gabriella]
So
I've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy]
Why do you have to go?

[Gabriella]
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

[Troy]
I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now

[Troy]
I want you to stay

[Gabriella]
I gotta go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy]
What about us?

[Gabriella]
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

[Troy]
I'm trying to understand

[Gabriella]
We might find our place in this
World someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way

Just dont understand why bother asking where am i gg, who i'm gg with. Isnt it better if i'm not ard? so when you get drunk you wouldnt come finding me drunk,hugging me so tight, crying so badly, starts scolding me and then regret why come finding me. shouldnt you be happier i'm not ard? Or you are just hoping to hear some gal name that i'm travelling with so you have more things to scold and blame me for hurting you over and over again?

well i guess nobody believe player's story. Even we r truthful everybody will just self assume.

Lousy?

2011-11-04T00:38:00.002+08:00

Ppl only rem ur lousy stuff.. What abt e good stuff? And when is e lousy stuff being done? When is e good stuff being done?
When u do good stuff for ppl will they appreciate will they even rem? Or it's just becoz lousy stuff is too easy to rem?

4th..

2011-11-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

Two months ago, Two months later.

It's time to

2011-09-23T18:45:00.001+08:00

Change!

It's time to sua tiu!!

2011-09-02T06:04:00.001+08:00

Perhaps it's time to sua tiu!!

Oh ya!!

2011-08-30T00:52:00.000+08:00

She didn't what she should do today!! Perhaps I should stop.

Mixed feeling..

2011-08-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

Excited
Dangerous

complicated
Meaningless

Nth!

2011-08-28T04:19:00.001+08:00

fool!

Dream

2011-08-26T02:18:00.001+08:00

Everything, but I'm not just in it!

Happiness??

2011-08-23T01:09:00.001+08:00

Did she mention she say she will give me happiness?? Guess both of us was too high!

13 stitches

2011-03-22T06:20:00.001+08:00

我的心，彻底的痛过那十三针。都怪一时的心软。帮人成了害了自己。

Blissful!!

2010-12-20T08:37:00.002+08:00

First time ever blogging at hospital..
felt blissful actually, it was bad at first puked 6-7 times in a day, headache and whatever but after some injection and stuff was much better..
Many many thanks to Kat, andrew, ah bee and paul to accompany me. Poor Kat and paul, one have to work straight after accompanying me whole night, one have to wait all alone outside.
Had not a bad time here thou, Got laptop la, Movie la, FB la, Internet la, personal hot nurse la(def is kat lolz), oh and 2 other cute nurse thou:), green tea la(just short of martell), tibits la.
Other patient seems fucking sick and lying down on their bed, only me sit up and down lying on tummy surfing net, searchingfor songs, blogging, watching movie(one of it R(A) ) one somemore, with my legs in e air. come to think of it, luckily i didnt insist to go home last night aleast can use mummy's medisave if not all gonna pay by cash, faintz! cant wait to discharge... tired but didnt slp at all, to me hospital is a kinda scary and horrible plc, esp e plc i do my brain scan, NB got ppl still can ask me "so will you be retarded??" TMD! somemore kinda wish ill be retarded, no worries, no trouble, no stress.
Hmm.. finally a sort of happy post for so long.. thou its in hospital. :D

I miss you like crazy!!

Runaway

2010-11-24T01:57:00.000+08:00

Let's go to neverland and never come back till forever ends!

JJ

2010-10-24T22:20:00.006+08:00

My bed, again. contagious??

J look sad tonight, after she told me what's gg to happen to him.

I felt it, he's moodless. And i'm down with him too. poor boy. and im actually crying for him.omg!

I like him.. it did came across my mind to keep him.. But i know i cant make it with him. Prob if i keep him, lotsa more rubbish story will be coming up.

Having a maltese was part of my plan b4 having lucky. but i know, it's just not this maltese.

As karlfie is a good lesson addy. Nvr put in feelings with e dog with e person u had an affair with.

Coz u will end up losing two not one. and i always believe it's harder to part with dogs, happen alot of cases on my cust. they broke up, they went back to visit their dog. karlfie was a easier one to deal with as i make my best effort dun ever get too close and she didnt like me much either. But J is different.

He slps beside me everynight for e past 2 months.

he will always surprise us by giving us a surprise jump, stepping us all over, licking us all over, step and sit on our hair, walk over our head and accidently buai his tiny dick on our face!

And i think i'm so gonna miss his surprise lick! which i use to hate it in e past. haha...

His shit stink big time and it's always very black charcoal colour! And he enjoyrunning onto my bed after poo-ing and leave stain on my sheets!

He always urine till his paw kena.

He loves to play with his food! sometimes You have to roll this dry food on e floor.

He loves fish and egg! His owner nvr wanna let him have human food, but who cares when e owner is not ard! hah! he always gobble it up..

He likes carlsbergs and heineken not a big fan of budweiser, sometimes after drinking he burp!

He still like to fight with sashimi over sashimi's bed even i get another bed for them.
His barking pitch is god damn high! and i learnt to predict when he will bark.

He loves to pick fight with sashimi! althou he always lose but still he will always look and create trouble.

He chew off two of my donald duck tag!!

He loves to make our heartbeat pump faster in e morning by surprising us with clothes, jeans, bra, panty, notes, letter, tissue paper, my hold-it-to-slp-toy, keys and e.g whatever u name it near e ground.

He loves to bite my thongs and underwear outta my wardrobe whenever i open it without fail!

- I was told i cant blame him! hah..

There's once i got pek chek and stuff him inside! hahaha....

She loves to keep rubbing his tears stain away, obviously it didnt work.

Sometimes when i slp till evening he will slp all e while with me and i even forgot to give him food and water. He didnt complain:)

I took his dick pic and sent it to ppl by wishing them have a good birdy day! He doesnt mind!! :)

I learned my heartbreaking lesson for giving up buddy and koda becoz of lover and i regetted till now..

I hope this person wouldnt.

So gonna miss you J!

It's 10/10/10

2010-10-10T15:51:00.002+08:00

I wonder what is she doing today?
Last year 09/09/09, i still remember what i'm doing what we r doing., sth silly.
Gg macau soon.. wonder how will it be like.. haiz..
suppose to go doreen's ROM at shanghai dolly, no mood.
*Again i saw blood* ahhh!!!!!... :D
kushinbo or not?

it's 4th again..

2010-10-04T16:53:00.002+08:00

It's e 4th again.. first time for so long we didnt spend it alone.
Glad she rem e 600th days thou she forgotten e 5ooth.
hope it goes well later when we meet.
misses shalyn lots lots.. feels so lost and handicap without her.. haiz.. spoiled!!
Lucky's bday coming soon.. how to celebrate leh?

Mistake

2010-09-03T00:29:00.001+08:00

deleted my blog from her phone.. hopefully she wouldnt remember it anymore..
aleast i feel safer to blog?

stupid mistake of mine i shouldnt have done.. if only she wasnt there tat that day.. if i carry on to behave.. if we could hold back ourselves. i wouldnt fall..

Finally she n her got tgt.. thou it's expected but didnt expect so fast.. still hoping prob we can get back tgt during macau trip.. she said she waited long enough.. coming two years rs, she told me waiting for 1month plus is more than enough.. everyone stunned.. ya... perhaps tat how much she loves me actually, while e one that say breaks up haven get over it yet. Kept everything since she's in closet, face her fren n colleagues as frens what do i get in e end? i know she feels happier with her now, thats sth tat i cant give her now.. so long as i cant forget abt e incident.
But what she has said to other n what she has told me..
DISAPPOINTED!!!!

couldnt believe my ears at first.. but ya.. tats what she said.. i dun wanna ruin their RS thou e other gal dun deserve, still i guess i'm outta e pic and i dont wanna care abt it.. so long as i dun hear anything worst.. i wouldnt care abt it.. totally dun feel like hunting lately.. it's not like tat in e past.. when i'm single i feel damn fucking light and happy.. but now i feels so stressed and heavy. I dunno what she's thinking and i dunno what she wants.. or what she expect?
I so wanna stop crying everyday and night.. sick and tired crying for her.. from b4 we r tgt till we r tgt till we r over. i think i kinda regret for what has happen.. but i know this is e path i choose, if she cant wait then too bad.. if she turns back just a bonus? i believes someone feels e same way as i do.. just that prob she haven reach e regret stage. I just feel being used lately.. I so wanna run back to e old butterfly me.. but just feels tired and how to? miss my glow!! need it back desperately!!! been trying to smile and look fine everyday coz i dun wanna face ppl with my I-fucking-hell-wants-to-cry-my-lungs-out face. this is one of my most miserable break up i guess.. it's not a very good feeling to cry myself to slp cry in my dream wake up seeing e person not there, e shoulder u slp for almost 2 years is not there. i still remember e first time we kissed we touched. everything just so clear n so , ok you know what.

Brazil..

It faded, i believes for both party.. am not sure it's a good a bad thing but i guess more to e good side.. e closer we r, e feeling went further. she regret of letting go so do i. e fact is we just cant be what i want definitely. What i yearn for she cant give me.. thou i be nice but still things wouldnt work out like tat.. am not happy.. so not happy with it.. i feel that prob i just wanna give until i'm sicking and tired, i just give up totally..

Im looking forward to e day that i can return her what i took away..

What else??

2010-08-23T09:33:00.001+08:00

I need my glow back desperately!!!

she confessed her feelings to her on MY BED, I gave her my blessing..
I wonder how i did it..

heaven knows

2010-08-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

If only I can run away from all this...
shalyn in hospital.. how i wish i can medisave!! lolz!!!

7uy677,9.8k7l - this is what lucky typed when she's consoling me.. haha..
she's e big devil n troublemaker at home.. but am not giving her up.. she's one of e reason i'm still smiling lately.. aleast she's one that awlays put smile on my face and seldom take it away:)

over..

2010-07-20T04:36:00.000+08:00

想念跟她的点点滴滴..

Don't have la!!!

2010-05-07T01:23:00.000+08:00

我要嫁个有钱人!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

14/3/10

2010-03-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

14/3/10 is a lousy day!!! right e beginning of the day till the end..... :( am not happy with this day.. so many things happen.. mummy went to hospital... I hate malays and their bloody fat kids!!!! why they will get sick coz they've been feeding their kids with too much food that's why they r so fat but yet so weak!!! am moody...

Coca cola...

2010-03-04T00:02:00.002+08:00

ACTUALLY i thot she's e one... she's i've wanted for long... we survived thru from all the lies, hide and seek and forgiveness. MOst ppl think i treat her bad.. but i dun give a shit.. aleast i know what i am doing.. BUT this few days i'm really treating her like shit.. I guess i know why... Maybe i just dun wanna admit... I dunno why i'm holding on.. maybe really for my effort..maybe I just dun want it to stop and end like that.. whenever i tried to work things out.. something will just pop up and spoil it.. I tot things might improve when she quitted her job.. but apparently not... perhaps b4 that subconsciously i've been letting go slowly, so slowly till i didnt realise it... coz after all.. she wasnt what i thot or expected. I dun denied i still love her lots.. but love is no longer the 1st thing i need... maybe when i'm 18, not now. Am dragging my feet to BKK later.. so so so dun feel like gg... I bet she knows too.. how good it i get killed in BKK.. then no burden, no disppointment, no heartbroken feeling, dun have to worry abt anything... or maybe i should just get a young galfren and get all the happening party life back.. ya maybe maybe... fuck the maybe la.. come to think of it.. i nvr had any gf younger then i'm, maybe mentality yes. an done here dun feel like writing anymore.. getting more and more depressed...

Lucky Shalyn...

2008-11-23T17:41:00.000+08:00

27/8/08

2008-08-27T16:33:00.001+08:00

Gamble

A day at Zoo!!!

2008-07-24T02:57:00.004+08:00

Zoo today!!!!!!

Woke up at 8.30am happily go press away e alarm and wanted to go brush teeth.
then i heard... THUNDER!!!! KNN!!! CCB!!!
one day wasted, coz we slept till 5pm..
cooked maggi mee, even e maggi taste like shit, which is i cook one!
then uncle came, told us daddy coming back today...
wa lau.. i tell you hor e feeling is worst then e thunder this morning lo..
if that particular person that i wanted to shoot is infront of me.. i'm sure he'll be dead.
seriously, things couldnt be worst man...
nth goes my way today!! not even e fucking maggi mee!!!
nth goes my way!!!!!!!!!!!
wasted 2 days.. ytd suppose to meet some fucking guys waited e whole day till i i it's kinda dumb to wait for guys i decided to head out and watch movie with cousin, just step into e mrt cousin called and say tickets sold out. tmd!! nvm so we went to play pool then head home for mj.. mj was good thou we lost. but aleast i enjoyed e moment. mj ends at 4am. gotto wake up at 8.30am to zoo, but she rather go online gamble soccer than go slp with me!! end up i have to throw temper and go and slp alone!! i hate asian bookie!! i hate viwawa!! i hate being neglected!!! fly asked me why my blog so moody lately, you tell me how to be happier??? by think oh, maybe if today i go zoo i might be eaten by e tiger, so it's a blessing that it rains?? or thinking oh luckily daddy came home today if not at night i might get rejected in bed?? *some1 might feels familiar regarding e last (e.g)* wahahaa...
seriously i think of anything that i could be happy abt lo other than e company...
shrugs... i need my happy pill.. my happy pill gg for 3 week reservist tmd..................
TERRY MING!!
get your ass outta e camp!!! eating and reading newspaper will only make you put on weight!!!!
anyway.. the lousy pathetic chatlet is over... shall force myself to slp soon...

nightmares...

2008-07-20T05:31:00.003+08:00

been having nightmare lately again...
now having another slpless night...
5.35am now..
grooming appt at 11am.
what the fuck i'm doing and thinking??
i feel sth wrong is wrong somewhere somehow...
but i dunno what izzit...
it's akinda feeling that i'm not suppose to have..
just not e right feel...
maybe you guys dunno what i'm talking abt...
but i know what i am talking abt..
Just that i dun wanna say i out..
i just wanna vent out on my blog without anyone knows what am i talking abt!!
coz maybe i dunno who is e right person i should talk to...
I'm trying, am really trying hard......
am afraid i dunno how to control my emo well...
but i need to...
i'm tired and slpy...
But when i hit the bed i just cant slp...
i'm not happy............................................................................................................................................. :(
most of my frens knows i keep things to myself alot.. damn alot..
but i feel it's just kinda hard to release it...
not till e day i cant take it anymore...
then... really.. say no more...
when is the last time when you and you slp b4 i do???
i cant remember.
too long...
only maybe when i'm feeling not good then i'll sneak out of bed and surf the net.
but whenever i do this...
it's really sth not good...
shrugs.... so many things to say and vent.. but.. i dun wanna share... can i make this a private post?? possible?? i dunno how... maybe i should start a private blog whereby no one knows e add. nth related to SASHIMI!! so no one will go try finding... 6am... still cant slp... wanted to bring sashimi down.. but few nights back kena attack by e same group of chao ah lian again when i brought her down for walk.. this time round better only 2 blue black.. one on my chest another on my..... face... KNS!!!!!!! can you imagine blueblack on my face? i practically if can i dun wanna meet anyone lo!! i hates ah lian!!!!! if i didnt hit back i really wanna make a report but everytime i tell myself duno hit back!! the very fucking next moment i did again. i mean who e hell can endure ppl beat you up and yet you stand there doing nth.. i'm not cock lo!! that's one thing i cant endure.. ppl hit me.. do expect me to hit back! i seriously dun care who you are not even my mum!! i dun give a fuck. it's just me.. i dunno what's filial i only know what's right and wrong. i've my way of being filial. so you cant say i'm not filial as well. sometimes parents do make mistaken and they also need discipline as well. hah...
Train your love ones, and you will get what you want! :D

Sashimi

2008-07-17T02:46:00.002+08:00

It's has been awhile i last take a real good look at you.
your face's fur starts turning white already..
My worries started.
Afraid that you're gg to leave me soon.
thinking back selfish me has been neglecting you while i wanna avoid my parents.
leaving you alone to face them everyday,guess you must be mad with me.
how i wish i could bring you wherever i go.
Maybe when i get a car i can??
how i wish we can go back to e time when i first got you.
Bring you down for walks cant wait to show you off to my neighbour that i have a extremely adorable puppy gal, sashimi.
There was a time when i bring you down for walks,DAMN IT!!! you were so damn popular!! ppl knows you!! everyone calling sashimi sashimi!! but.. i dunno them...
I remember the time mummy torture you, and i grab you and just walk out of e house without any money with me to our fav hang out place,
my fav hang out place only just me and you knows.
Remember the time that i brought you for swimming every evening when i cycle you to sembawang park everyday when my sch ended?? that's e first thing i will do whenever my sch ends. just cant wait to rush home and see you! peeping at you when you're inside e toilet screaming and whining away when you know i'm home! shaking you butt till they're like gg drop.
Baby gal i miss this all!!!!
do you????....

another feeling not so right night...

2008-07-17T02:08:00.003+08:00

我躲在衣橱里见不到阳光,
呼吸困难,
觉得有点辛苦.
做人不可以那么自私,
我相信问题不在于她,
是我...
自己选择的路,
就忒全力以赴.
半途而废根本不是方诗晴的作风!!

可是,
我的信心呢??
充满自信的我呢??
充满活力的我呢??

好象迷失了...

我需要的...

我到底要怎么做呢??
第一次感觉到...

rotting blog....

2008-04-03T02:37:00.003+08:00

My new "ta-lingssss" ta la!!! lim ah!!! half half??!!
eeee... ghost face... hehe
Her MOST photogenic pic...
stone...
head head!!!
2nd time meeting... still got xing xiang...
3rd time meeting.. gone...

San lian Pai!!!

1st time meeting... xing xiang xing xiang...

ok... i'm here to save my rotting's blog... i guess less talking and more pic will do la huh.. hehe..

just for laugh

2008-02-28T14:07:00.000+08:00

best!!

Moody day, Moody night

2007-12-22T02:11:00.000+08:00

Been moody all day long today.. dunno why..maybe due to e changing of mind again in e morning which i normally hate to change my decision, my tot, my feelings??.. always have to be changed by emo gals.. why do i always met emo gals?? or gal r always emo?? or i'm e one that has no feelings??or.. or.. or..??? arg.. stupid emotional thingy.. complained far, then i go your place not far la?? somemore ask me to go when i've grooming ard that area.. isnt my bag heavy enough?? you know how to shoot ppl but have you reflect on yourself yet?? shrugs.. actually alots of thingy you ruin it yourself.. i dun express my feelings doesnt mean i am heartless, just that i nvr say how i feel. coz i know it's not e right time.. but b4 e right time has arrived your inpatient took e right time away... and changed every decision again... why.. tired really tired.. maybe you change becoz u dunno what am i thinking or how do i feel when i nvr say.. but after tgt been awhile.. i'm sure more or less you know what am i thinking abt right??
Heart really shattered into piece...
Joyfulpets 1 year anni.. you didnt even say or mention anything.. sometimes i wonder you always say you care you care.. but do you really give a damn?? or you've already forgotten e whole damn thing?? or maybe you will only remember again thats e day i lie to you.. ya.. i think so.. probably that's e only thing you will remember and think of it...
haiz... alright.. enough of venting my angry and pek chek-ness.. really tired.. mind tired.. body tired.. i wanna slp.. but i cant slp for long.... haven even bath......
Its another damn cold night.. Longing for your hug...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANGELA!!
LOVE YOU BITCH!!!

SINGLEHOOD ROCKS!!!!!

You want mum mum???

Cousin night out!!

2007-12-20T20:46:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. this is our first pathetic but fun cousin night out.. eh.. e gay looking guy behind us is not our cousin ah..haha.. ok la.. he's cute la.. only e 3 gals infront.. looking at e pic then i realise my mouth is really wide!!!
went zouk last night with them.. luckily we got it early, outside Q was madness... first time club with my eldest cousin which looks like celect chong when she was younger.. now she's a mother of 2 already.. hmm.. ys e baby boy below was her youngest son.. and after clubbing went to supper talked for awhile.. we are strongly agree that we r e entertainment family.. every of our cousin on this side can sing can dance can drink.. thats a pretty much good things..
Went JB with aunt ytd had our fav curry fish head and watched the heartbreak kid.. its like 10rm per person.. WOW!! on PH eve somemore leh.. kio tio sai... NO.. its kio tio po..lol
I've finally got my printer after like 2 years?? haha... Thanks.. :)

All i want for chirstmas.... your lifetime...

relatives day...

2007-12-12T02:15:00.000+08:00

Mum's side youngest cousin. 10years old almost as tall as me.. shit!
Tarus!!!!
My fav uncle.. use to dote me alot.. USE TO!! haha... 他变了... He's really getting old.. e white hair on his head.. haiz.. when he's young he look pretty much like cao guo hui... quite charming and dashing man.. but now?? erm.. no comments... no comment coz he's my fav uncle.. wahahaha...
Daddy's side youngest nephew, joshua boy in his sexy pampers and running ard bottomless...
Joshua trying to act cute and innocent..haha... was playing with him e whole night then tot of if i give birth how will my child looks like... hmm... 还瞒想生一个来玩玩...

Its was really a relative day for me.. went to both parent's side.. morning went temple with mother side. Met my fav uncles and aunt... then head bugis for lunch and shop ard.. spend 45 mins in top shop bargaining with my aunt coz e stupid jersey shirt is 2 for $29 and i've spotted 1 for myself but i dun wanna get 2 just for cheaper but 1 is very very bo hua.. so she choose 2 for her husband.. trying to psycho her to get one more so i can get it at cheaper.. so after 45 mins of bargaining she finally decided to get 1 and i get 1.. phew~~~. haha... simply look like an aunty bargaining with another aunty in top shop and we use canto to speak as well.. thats e worst.. e sales gal was like.. what r this 2 aunties doing..lol...

Rush home to send harrie off.. that little polar bear...

And straight head to daddy's side to grandma's birthday... a place which i dun really like to go..
Grandma how old i also dunno... cousinS and i planned next wed go club at mambo.. i'm e youngest of coz.. hmm.. nvr club with a mother of 2 b4.. hope there wouldnt be any generation gap.. haha...e party wasnt that bad.. first time drink and smoke with my grandma.. feeling... so-so... Met up with e youngest niece which was like how old i dunno.. this is e sec time i saw her.. 1st time she's was still a baby.. 2nd time.. she can run and read a book AND speak with proper eng with proper words/sentence.. but well educated fuck-up parents ... mother was a JC lecturer.. dad sign on with dunno navy or air force la.. good life she'll have....

Head back to woodlands and meet some of e woodlands biatches.. still feel e best seeing them.. the biatches that we cook until "lan" haha... Tot of a plan of gathering every biatches once a month.. but wonder will all of us compromise.. spoke to one of them abt it.. both of us have e same thinking that 2 of them sure have pattern coming up.. maybe we simply know too well.. but still we do hope we can make it..

Little things is hurting me alot.. i dunno why.. as in why i bother.. found e biscuit. but abit no point now.. chirstmas prezzie?? cant forget e look of that person when i left that day... it lingers in my mind everyday.. maybe i'm e one thats e real damn jerk bah...

Finally i know what i want for christmas!!!!!! 秘密... :)

What you want for chirstmas??? :) tell me in my dream.. I promise i will try my best to give whatever you want.. promise...

Long time no post..

2007-12-05T02:10:00.000+08:00

My notti cousin and 1 of my fav dog..
Sashimi in daze...
One of e prawn i've caught..
Heehee.. big big prawn!!!
My toys in my room...

Been a long time i blog.. ppl says i'm lazy le.. haha.. But just wanna keep myself busy and dun think of anything else mah... then reached home of coz tired la.. not much update thou.. married to joyfulpets. haha..
As for me and her, guess its just not fated anymore...
Anyone got lobang for LCD tv??? not e big big one ah.. i just wanna put it in my room.. my 14" gg to "kee chia" liao...

I dunno i'm having e 3rd or e 4th...

Good to see you well again... my precious baby gal..

我是个残废

2007-11-15T14:49:00.001+08:00

爱里行动不便
追不上你的美
脚步再快跟不上你的嘴
分开我骗了谁
想擦掉你的脸
擦不掉痛却更明显
我说我要的世界
在很远你不了解
分手就分手
别把话说得太美
我像个残废
飞不出你的世界
借不到一点安慰
为什么我拼命后退
退到了边界
结果我没了知觉
就连痛都嫌浪费
在爱里残废
非弄得伤痕累累
累到我无力再追
最怕你突然要挽回
回到了原点
原点却又像终点
然后多痛一遍
我像个残废
在爱里残废...........................

plenty Misses

2007-09-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

A song for her...

Its has been 3 days i nvr see her le.. really plenty misses.. her maths test today.. hope she done well.. wondering this 3 days have she been missing me as much as i miss her too.. haiz..
Dinner with parents on sat night, been a long time my dad brought us out for dinner. thou its just a coffee shop at marsiling and i ate lotsa junk food earlier on, but just wanna spend some time with them.
Hectic monday today, woke up early hopefully can send dear a msg to wish her all the best in time. do basic grooming for snowy, help mummy cooked lunch so she can come back and eat in time after work. then rush off to tampines and groom beebee then rush home to catch last episode of like father like daughter, expected ending but somehow like cut off alot leh.. like the mummy was being rescue then next moment the both of them in states liao, how i wish this moment i'm at home next moment i'm at her house hehe...Then quickly send snowy home after the show. just reached home, called her cant get her.. haiz.. didnt talk to on the phone today...missing her voice.

Bought a wallet from project shop, hee.. my kind of wallet. love it!!

Its either, alittle bit salty or its too salty. Not alittle bit too salty.

不懂

2007-08-21T02:47:00.000+08:00

我间中饮醉酒很喜欢自由
常犯错爱说谎但总会内疚
遇过很多的损友学到贪新厌旧
亦欠过很多女人

怕结婚只会守三分钟诺言
曾话过要戒烟但讲了就算
梦与想丢低很远但对返工厌倦
自小不会打算

但是仍唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算坏我也不忍心偷偷作怪

没有跟的野种飘忽的命途
谁像你当我宝甚黱也做到
旧爱手中一疋布在这刻写句号
只想跟你终老

在地球唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算我也不忍心

还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我拼命捱
换转别个也忍心偏偏作怪

真的在形容我吗??
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当我知道你们相爱

和你分手已多年本来不应该怀缅
可是已习惯夜里回忆重演
无法解释也无法改变
刚好接到你一封信
信内说到你的恋情
你和他之间充满美丽憧憬好想
祝福却言不由衷心
当我知道你们相爱有了开始有了未来
想替你开心人却无法释怀
我的悲哀在眼底徘徊
当我知道你们相爱
我的心底泛起许多无奈
我的心在哭
我真的在乎
你的离开
此情难再

好有用的一首歌.好真实的一首歌.
曾经你的歌,现在我的歌.
我们三人的默契, 赞!!!!!
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把手放了
我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人
我也许不会再撑
真的够了
能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了
能不能不要开灯
我们的爱跟着
你写的剧本出现了
越来越多的角色
我是你什么人
如果不是情人
是不是不要再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚
你对我多好多温柔多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我
想着我只有我
爱本来就该独一无二
为你伤心多一点少一点
流下的眼泪都一样值得
世界上那么多人
只有我一个人
能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了

我的感受吗??
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冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 oh
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

不能说的秘密
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好有意义的几首歌.

累,乱,烦.
我到底该怎么办??
爱,当然还爱.

pre-celebration

2007-04-22T00:57:00.000+08:00

Here's all the woodlands biatches!!! i wonder why the shortest always have to stand infront. haiz.. depressing..

Angela and I..

Kai ting, me and sheena

Sheena and me outside cine.

Took this pic with kai ting while waiting for the *sff*.. lol..

Babes at K box..lol..

The surprise birthday cake they gave me..thanks my lovely biatches..

I seriously dunno why gals like to take pics in the toilet.

As e usual way of taking out the candles.

Ms swan*behind me* was here to celebrate my bird day too..LOL...

The gang celebrate my birthday on the 22nd. sweet them huh.. meet georgina and kai ting at admiralty mrt, george brought dai en and an uninvited guest along too which totally spoil our mood.Had lunch treat at manhattan fish market from gerogina, sheena and kai ting. Yummy food!! walked ard.. went daiso sheena tried out some glasses and let us had a good laugh... lol.. went to k box without gerogina, dai en and the sff. Finally without the sff. phew.. had fun at k box!! the gals surprised me with a birthday cake half way thru the singing session with a completely *teruk* birthday song. but thanks gal.. really appreciate it!! :) angela meet us after work ard 9 plus 10 and she bought me, my fav donald duck for my birthday present.. hee.. thanks gal for making e effort to come all the way down to celebate for me. went arcade for awhile and the gals send me home. 3 cheers for my woodlands biatches!!! i love you gals..

Mentos, the freshmaker

2006-11-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

His puppy look...

ok.. for those that didnt see him b4, this is Buddy... e best boy in e world..

他, 他, 还深爱着他...

Buddy and his birthday toy...

Me and my precious boy.. our head.. almost e same size huh...

好想你!!! check out his golden eye lashes... chio!!...

我跟他...

* paw paw *

Buddy's peeping...

He's e best boy i ever had... everytime when i see him i blame myself for dumping him... regret? yes i do.. i wish i had fight for him.. but e useless me let him go like that.. guess you'll slowly forget abt me.. which i tot you'll bloody hell remember me thru out your whole life. it tear me apart when you didnt stick with me wherever i go anymore. Everyone thinks its better for you to forget me.. but have they ever tot of e one that being force to let you go? i'm being force to let you go.. and yet i should feel happy that you forgot all abt me? be fair to you? then who e hell is gg to be fair to me? i just want maybe alittle bit more of your attention thats all..izzit that difficult? i'm useless that i cant have you.. Tears nvr fail to drop off from my eyes whenever i walk thru that gate, but will you think of me when you slp at night? Can i kidnap you?

You want him back too, don't you?

Our song

2006-10-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

Look at the stars
look how they shine for you
And everything you do
Yeah, they were all yellow
I came along
i wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow
So then i took my turn
Oh what a thing to have done
And it was all yellow
Your skin,
oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
You know, You know i love you so
I swam across I jumped across for you
Oh what a thing to do
cos you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow
And your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
And you know,
For you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry
It's true,
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for＃Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine for you
Look how they shine
Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you
And all the things that you do

Happy ending..

2006-10-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hangin
'In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything,
everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be,
but we lost it
And all of our memories,
so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things
I thought I knew And I thought we could be
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

Its nice to share a mooncake with you. Yummy durian ice-cream mooncake.

Irritated..

2006-09-24T04:40:00.000+08:00

I think maybe we should just get out of each other's life for awhile.. one night can quarrel two times.. seriously i dunno what i can say to you anymore. we no longer share e same topic. coz we will end up quarreling. i dunno what you want from me. i'm suffocating. i believe it has been hard on you too.. dun have to learn blade just to blade with me. I'm tired of gg out with one gal and have to explain things to you. tell you e truth you cant accept it, hide you from you said i lied.. go think abt it.. why i'll make up a story of nicole. I really hate you. if this is your way of loving me. then pls STOP loving me.. i dunno how to accept such love! lemme go will you? I'm tired you're tired too.. so what for love me till you're so tired. I've made myself clear enough abt us i guess. maybe i'm bad at rejection thats why you'll feel neglected. its not i dun wanan accompany you or what. but its everytime your ans will be like " it's ok lo.. if she ask you out then you go with her bah" then what am i suppose to do? or you will gimme last min meeting notice. how am i gg to arrange my time? dun tell me you have no frens to accompany you when you have tons of them and when you're out with me. 70% of your time will be on phone. 10% sms-ing. 20% talking to me? till i get so fed up that i called fly and chat in front of you. its not i wanna do such things to you, do you understand. its you force me to. i dun wanna hear any explaination from you anymore and i dun wanna explain myself once and once again. you see no effort has been done of meeting you then be it. you dun have to see it anyway, coz all you'll feel is by e end of e day, i wouldnt be meeting you. enough enough. i'm fucking single for this 4 months and yet why i will feel that i'm still attached?! why do i still need to explain thing? maybe now i should help you to fulfil e things that you cant do. stop contacting each other bah. you can blame me and scold me for being implusive. but i think this is only what i can do for us bah. b4 we cant even be a hi-bye frens. enough of venting my anger. still thinking if i should go for tml's tournament since it's already meaningless.

A day at Zoo!!

2006-09-21T03:41:00.000+08:00

The fattest Jaguar i've ever seen.Prob just laying down there his whole life.
Interesting love bites...
B-U-T-T-E-R-F-L-Y , Butterfly.
I like him!! He's so damn cute!!!
me and fly..
Off to Australia...
Kangaroo!!!
My tour guide in fragile forest...
hee hee, e babe host..
Poo Poo...

1 of e poor greedy, lamb?

Went to zoo today with fly. supposed to go at 8 plus and see elephant bath then end up she reached my house at 9.30am.. tsktsk.. haha... then had breakfast at KFC and we start our little tour... we spend 3/4 time catching all e animal feeding show... I still love e children world animal land e most!!! but no more little chicks.. :( everything was good except for 1 kid scared me and e fragile forest. The animals friends show was wonderful!! e seal was smart and e host was hot too.. haha... best part is when we went over and feed e baboons.. once i reached, I saw one male is giving e female a good job. what a scene. Animal live show in e zoo.. haha... they r pretty cute*ugly but adorable* la.. dunno why fly like it so much.. lol..
After zoo we head 630 for dinner with mummy. yummy dinner! then we catched wannabe gigolo... a so-so show.. fell aslp when it started. kinda boring. Bump into angela, so we go for spin to causeway jetty b4 we head for supper.
Went to safra for bowling end up they having laster league so went to OCC instead.. sucky lane with sucky arrogant bowler. Never like there at all, ever since young. Dun try to preach me to change from a spinner to a hooker. when You only score 150+ and your hook sucks big time!! I'm a spinner since young i see nth wrong and i'm fucking happy with it! who e hell are you to judge and try to preach?! * roll eyes* maybe i should preach you to change it to spinner since your hook sucks. my first two game suck while fly's was good.. catched up at e back, then its fly's turn to have sucky game.. haha.. tired but wonderful day... :)

Imagine me and you.. a blog for you

2006-09-18T02:18:00.000+08:00

Watched Imagine me and you, how come our ending is so different from it? haiz... holding back my tears while watching. Married woman.. sigh... i finally agree that married woman are powerful. Passed by Bar-stop afew times. Everything is still e same, seats arrangement and ambience is still e same.. but where are e ppl that chilled out tgt and dine there on 1/9/2004 ?? I dun see them anymore... i miss it lots... damn lot.. i dun mind to sacrifice 10 years of my life to get that one day back *in reality pls... Everytime i passed by Bar-stop my eyes will definitely get wet. Wanted to walk in again, but i dun have e courage to walk in alone or with fren? worst, i dun wanna break down infront of them. E place that i only wanna walk in again tgt with you only.. Do i still have e chance? i know i'm e one that decided we shouldnt keep in contact anymore. but i cant denied i do still hope that we will be like, you know in e past, our meet up, our happy days. I dun mind you're getting married again. Coz when e first day i have you in my arms i know you're a married woman. i dun mind having no status. i dun mind e everything you've done to me. i did hurt you too.I miss our mambo night right after Bar-stop. The way you dance and sway is still in my mind. Your voice and pic is still in my phone.. Totally cant bear to delete off. When will you be free to add something new inside? will there be a chance to? I know its totally no.. maybe i should stop giving myself hope and let myself down. forget you? easier said than done.2 years.. whole damn fucking 2years! when will you get out of my mind? i regret for being impulsive when you told me you're getting married again. i really regretted... i was just too disappointed. till e extend, i deleted your number. Will there be a day that i would recieve a call from you? or will there be a day you accidently hit my name a gimme a call when you dun even know it and i will just carry on hearing your day your voice. just like what you did it on purpose in e past.. :( We have been silly in e past. maybe we can carry on being silly? dun you miss e silly happy days? maybe i should be selfish, shouldnt have support you to go overseas. coz.. aleast i know you're still around me even thou you're married. i still can see you. we still have our silly happy days. but now i have nth.. not even e sight of you. But i'm glad that you've finally archived what you yearn for... I'm proud of you.. i really do.. and i always have been...

Just wanna ask you, do you still remember who is Jolyn Fong?

Long week..

2006-09-17T03:31:00.000+08:00

Ok... it has been a long time i touch my blog again.. not really long thou i can see ppl that didnt blog for monthSSS. Wednesday, brought sashimi down to wizard of paws.. hee.. finally make an effort to. had a great day with her.. bath her cut her nail and dig her ear..sad to say i have time to groom other dogs but not my own dog. haha.. just simply lazy...she is now sooooo damn clean and smells great too. emily send me to work so we have lunch tgt and she left once grandma reached. then after work meet up with nicole and fly had dinner at newton then we went to cine to play pool.. yes with my dog in my bag.. wagagaga... then head for supper with chris and serene...

Thursday, met up with amy after work went to eat villa'ge. yummy mashed potatoes and now i'm addicted to it. then we went to zouk for herstory event with leo, holy baby, fly and stephen. Lovely amy keep teasing me with that "try to be cool" butch and Singapore "Ru hua" omg.. almost faint when i saw her approaching ru hua to get her number for me.. boring night.. we left at 1am. shock bo? haha...

then friday, start work at 10am again... terrible morning. break one bottle of salt again and i saw that "try to be cool" butch. with e totally same outfit. arg... Its nicky's birthday today, so meet him up and catched a movie with him. then ya.. i really have been very clumsy lately and always happen in e cinema.

e.g,

1. Fell and rolled down two steps. *damn heng ah e show started so its dark and nobody see my face..LOL..
2. I cant hold my hot dog properly and it just *PIAK on e floor facing down.. *Totally feel like crying..
3. I spilled my coca cola on e floor when i just sit down and i made e floor so damn sticky...

Happening? And today i even drop e chocolate on my dining room then i have to pick it up one by one. haiz... what happen to me lately.. butter finger, butter me. Having headache e whole day today.. dunno why.. and its affecting my mood. Have KFC for dinner, too oily till it makes me wanna puke then when it get better, Me and fly went over to xiao chou's work place to have ice cream waffles. she made it herself for us. with two big full of ice cream with fruit somemore.. lol.. then now its too creamy till i wanna puke. too much ice cream i even had root bear float lo. *puke
Tml gg for tournament again.. hope i'll have a good game... Good luck!!!

Sleep in my arms, baby gal and i'll pat you to sleep...

Bad day!!!!

2006-09-13T03:15:00.000+08:00

Coz i had a bad day
Lina's taking me down
I sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
I tell you don't lie
I work at a frown and I go for a ride

Thats my bad day! first time feeling so sucky working at pastamania... surprisingly e one that ruin my day is lina.. shrugs... swtiched to full time.. so next week she plan for me, i cant request..but i dun mind.. but e hell is we agree i wouldnt be working on weekends and e shit she's giving me is sat 7pm till 3am.. fuck man... endure lo, since its my first week of full time.. dun wanna make a fuss over it.. i feel that e closer you are with your manager or boss e better your work performance must be.. reason? simple. things will kinda dun look good or turn ugly if you are lazy or you make a mistake... nono... we learn from mistake, or things like taking MC and so.then when your manager or boss open their mouth to scold, we will actually feel worse. haiz... so i revenge on her food... purposely put lotsa parsley in it... even thou we have to put parsley in every pasta.. but her is half full of it... then i get to know that she hate parsley.. then end up i think she's pissed so she didnt finish it and throw it away.. and went to cheers to buy maggi to eat.. but i cant be bothered. i'm pissed too... sulking away while working.. fly and wynne drop by to have dinner.. so i eat with them.. think they can see how unhappy i'm today with my work... then went KTV with nicole, fly and wynne.. till abt 2 plus then hit home.. still thinking should i bring baby gal to work tml? its kinda troublesome. but i can have more time with her leh...

Baby gal, wanna go gaigai?? *wink wink

Lucky me?

2006-09-12T03:21:00.000+08:00

Been days since i last update huh? lies been told, misunderstanding, ppl giving ppl attitude, sucky week huh? hmm...weekends, sat i'm working, surprise? haha... anyway emily got me a bear.. ya.. another bear.. now i really have to change my msn nick.. haha.. cant use that line to hook ppl le... coz i got TWO bear now.. kinda feeling fortunate haha... went to eat sakura with fly today at far east.. yummy!! it has been sucha long time i go there and eat le.. miss e kang kong so much!! then meet up with emily for awhile to take back my HP and went to play pool.. last min decide to go CNC so asked lina along.. consider i had a great night there bah.. coz not much ppl and i can sing and play pool with ease.. haha... till abt 1am we left.. and catched up with dandan at 888 for supper...

My poor gal on heat now.. gotto confine her in e toliet.. galgal i miss you.. :(

Nice song

2006-09-11T03:24:00.000+08:00

发现你和他一起　我还努力相信你是无心怕自己会想质问你
整天忙碌借故躲你你永远不用太费力　
就能得到别人肯定你快乐我陪着高兴　
可是偶尔失落会来咬着心, 我爱他　他爱你　
两人三角陷入困境爱上同一个人这种默契　
是讽刺还是证明我们的友谊我爱他　
他偏偏爱你　两人三角痛苦不已爱情到底是种什么东西　
一定要让每个人为它伤心有时候我藏了某些情绪　
而你有秘密我却不开心有时候我忌妒你的幸运　
当你不顺利我又比你着急

Busy week..

2006-09-07T01:43:00.000+08:00

Gonna have a busy week... last night thumper, dance till my leg cramp this morning.. aleast two things was solved.. or only one.. whatever it is... none of my business anymore... was stoning away during work.. but so far so good today is also e most happiest day i work in e morning shift... e manager is "bullyable" haha... then head home to rest, bath and change b4 gg back to town... had KFC for dinner.. yummy... someone got me a sasha med size bear.. sweet... luckily i go with her if not dun have le.. haha..e shop was on promotion.. still thanks alot.. :) decided taht my bear should be a male one..what name should i give him then? any idea?...

My baby gal on heat...poor gal...

Mahjong day...

2006-09-05T01:49:00.000+08:00

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Woke up at 5 plus i think... mummy is sick.. suppose to take care of her and stay at home.. but aunt called to ask me for mahjong.. and my mum hand me over to her.. haha... didnt even have dinner and i rush there.. haha.. played for three rounds only and we were tired.. too long nvr play le maybe... and i lost $50.. haha... slp so much but yet still so tired haiz... Am i that old already?...

Baby day out...

2006-09-04T02:18:00.000+08:00

Wonderful tired day... went to east coast with nicole, mummy, that two kids and my precious baby gal... nicole drive us there.. finally my mum get to see nicole.. think she made quite a good impression.. haha... then brought e kids to cycle.. i hope i will not have to bring kids out again.. haiz.. troublesome ass... or its becoz i dun like kids that why i'll feel so? hmm... then for my whole life i've nvr cycle so slow and so stress b4... gotto "lonbang" my mum.. and my dog in front.. in e basket... that bike is so heavy and e basket is kinda shaky... if fall, i really dunno who to grab man... and tat xiao chong tou (one of e kid), coz his, is a very small bike haha.. so he gotto cycle 4 times to catch up with us.. by e time he catched up, he's breathless already... haha... and i keep talking to him and make him talk haha.. he didnt reply me at all.. lol... sashimi e most good life one.. sit in e basket bio-ing ppl... and e forgetful me forgot to let her drink.. haha... till we went for dinner and its nicole tat ask me.. why you nvr give her drink one huh? i was like.. "oh ya hor"... haha.. paiseh paiseh.. then give her coke.. picked up her princess bed as well... somehow she knows that her bed.. when i bring e bed into e car.. straight away she jump and slp on in le... and she sleep all e way home... :)

I kept my promise to bring you out, hope you like your new bed... :)

Scary movie...

2006-09-02T05:46:00.000+08:00

Went shopping with nicole today.. bought a cap.. due to my hair.. finally decided to *cut* it.. haha.. when e hair dresser snip off my fringe.. my jaw drop... " Aunty!! i say alittle bit only!!!" omg... there its goes.. now i look like a nerd...When emily saw my hair.. all she can do is shake her head.. haha... now its really my turn to say " hair will grow one" . gonna buy lotsa cap... and my that thick thick hair of mine.. now its so *not thick.. haha... first time ever my pony tail got so thin... haiz...o.k, enough of my hair.. went to play pool at cine... play for almost two hours... and we decided to catch a midnight movie... she wants to watch *The art of devil 2* hmm.. good decision... fucking movie almost make me puke! so bloody and u know, i'm always very scared of those thai curse thingy.. and that stupid show was abt that.. first time ever, till i reached home, e scene of e movie is still flashing in my mind... gonna stop watching horror movie for a time being...

Monster, Monster go away, any volunteer to slp with me tonight?...

BBQ..

2006-08-30T01:11:00.000+08:00

*Yawn... worked at wizard of paws today.. been such a long time i see them... everybody was like checking out what gg on with my life.. haha.. my new partner was a hot temper aunty.. *scary.. was ordering treats for e shop. then a special bed catch my eyes... wow.. it simply just look like a princess bed... tot of getting it for sashimi since i've throw that dirty bed of hers away.. and her birthday is approaching.. its like in Oct la huh.. haha...its $55 for RSP and they giving me 45% discount.. so consider very cheap le.. then order for her lo.. since her another mummy is sharing with me.. haha... went to ting's BBQ after work with 16 dog can food, 3 cans human food and a bag of dog dry food.. me alone carry there.. i'm great, isnt it?.. totally worn out and so damn bloody shag when i reached there... then fly came out and pick me and she help me take.. she take awhile KPKB... can u imagine i take those thing and have to go supermarket and buy longan? hmm.. but still she help me to take all e way in la.. thanks thanks.. then after i finish eating... ting's gf show us her firework.. its was nice.. :) red and green clolour one... then we start playing water game, fruit and ice game.. and beer game.. those who left early missed e fun.. then around 11pm.. fly send me home.. coz i cant wait for nicole le.. she's too late..haiz..

Got a present for you, hope you like it, dun have to slp on e floor anymore.. :)

Omg.. I'm a FUTCH!!!

2006-08-28T18:40:00.000+08:00

For Lesbians... Where Do You Fall on the Butch-Femme Continuum?

You are a futch... the toss up between butch and femme. On a scale of 1-10, one being femme and ten being butch, you'd be a 5 1/2!

Take this quiz!

Omg.. cant believe this... I'm a FUTCH!! ahhh... nononono.. tot i might be u know maybe between 2 to 4.. 5 and a half.. arg...
Hmmm... had a great day ytd.. went out early in e morning to nicole house.. finally she have time for me. then meet her fren and fly to go east coast tgt and blade.. nicole and i blade e rest cycle... sweat alot.. but e cyclist didnt sweat much thou..and they keep complaining haha... and e bitch me, because of my sudden right turn, one little boy fell off from his bike..hehe..saw lotsa dogs there.. feel so sad tat sashimi is not there.. :( Then after cycling we went to search for bathroom. but all have long Q. and we booked e movie tickets already and movie starts at 7.15pm. and we only have 15 mins to bath 15 mins rush there.. then when we decided to go to tampines stadium to bath we passed by siglap community center and we even argue to say, you sure there is bathroom in community center? then we went in, to check it out.. hmm. true enough there is.. then somebody became "yaya" liao lo.. e toilet is so much better and cleaner, best part dun even have to Q haha... then rush to tampines we were 15 mins late. collect tickest and rush our way to e theatre. Watched "snakes on a plane" nice exciting show. haha.. then went to eat cartel and head to orchard party world...
Watched ting's play on sat.. burst out laughing when she's out... OMG... haha.. e hairstyle.. cool man.. lol... then later in e night we went alternative... hee.. hmm.. i think i still have better luck in alernative than C&C *in pool i mean*.. haha...

I'll bring u out next week, i hope i can, or aleast I'll try...

Homophobia?

2006-08-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

Homophobia and You...

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had.

I wish they could adopt me.I am one of the lucky ones, I guess.

I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.I am not one of the lucky ones.

I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person who is afraid of telling her loving Christian parents she loves another female.

Repost this if you realize homophobia is wrong.

My poor dog..

2006-08-24T01:47:00.000+08:00

Hmm... something happen last night made quite a number of ppl furious... my poor baby gal being kicked at her hind leg by two chao ah lian, At my void deck area. They gave sashimi a hard kick till she scream at her top of e voice.. hot man.. blood just shoot up to my head..its e same hooligans i met months ago... arg... so i helped my gal to 打抱不平 thou normally I dun hit gals.. but too bad la huh... Hey gal, I know where to attack u e next time round i see you... ^$#%#^*%@$ cant believe there is still such 吃饱没是做的人. My two bruise, i'm going to collect it back when i see you next time round if you dare to show face again.. Watched e ghost game with fly.. omg... i think she sprian her waist during the movie haha..told you le.. i'll be there for you dun worry.. *wink wink hahahahahahaha... scare for wat.. haiyo... timid fella..

It hurts me alot to see you in pain my precious gal...

Bad start

2006-08-23T00:35:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... had a bad morning...mange to wake up thou i just slp for 3 hours.. packing ym bag looking for my uniform.. best.. no sight of it.. called my mum she told me both also haven wash.. *clap clap.. THEN WHAT I WEAR TO WORK???!!! but cant blame her also.. she have her chore to do as well.. somemore cook such a good meal for me over e weekend.. so she's forgiven..lol... then went to work... stoning away..in train luckily Marley is there for me...Tot i am gg to be late.. but i am actually two mins early.. *fi-e-fi* ya.. so far so good working at pastamania.. i only drop a piece of banana pizza tats all.. then this morning i broke one bottle of salt.. tsktsk bad start... but noon onward everything was great..nicky pop by to say hi... em pick me up from work then went home tgt... suppose to go for squash.. but too damn lazy... someone got so shock when i show her what i've bought.. haha.. still remember e look on her face... its really windy tonight... carry my little gal and enjoy e breeze for awhile just now... she fell aslp in my arms once again... :)

Gonna feed my precious now, solid gold or addiction tonight?

16 hours

2006-08-22T04:37:00.000+08:00

Halo... been a few days i nvr blog le... busy with my weekend life la.. haha... Hmm.. friday went drinking at crystalbella... nvr regret gg there.. hehe... but now a bit cant be bothered with it leh.. why huh? *ppl that r with me tat night know wat i'm talking abt la huh... then sat watched america hunting with nicky.. then he accompany me till i meet up with fly and go into O bar tgt with her frens coz tat night have to be 20 and above... arg...had a great night there.. thou not really familiar with e ppl...and we had supper till 6am.. xiong ah... sunday mah.. mummy cook, so gotto stay at home...fly and emily came over for dinner...you know.. i slept from morning abt 7 plus till abt 5 when fly reached.. then its like, after dinner abt 8 plus then lie on bed and rest.. then fall aslp right after emily left.. its like ten plus... then i sleep all e way till this afternoon or maybe evening.. its about 16 hours when emily calculate for me.. lol.. then we had dinner in town play pool and went KTV till 3 plus... whao... later gotto work at 10am.. not enough slp again..
:( hehe.. sahsimi just jump onto my lap b4 i start blogging.. now she fall aslp in my arms le.. :)

Slp tight baby gal...

Tired..

2006-08-18T00:44:00.000+08:00

Hello my little blog... neglected you for afew days.. paiseh paiseh.. Hmm... nth much abt this week. Trying not to stay up late and stay at home but i think i only manage stay home for one day lo and that day is due to i am extremely tired.. get home and slp b4 NINE!!!! then sleep all e way till e next day and went to work.Dunno why hor i woke up with a deep scratch and one painful blue black. And hor, i am not a violent sleeper hor. you can put a bowl of water on e bed and i wouldnt spill it if you slp with me lo.. I'm a gentle sleeper O.K! Bleah... still feel tired leh after sleeping for almost 12 hours le...then bodyache somemore.. Met up with nicky today watched, sophie scholl :the final days. Nice show, but quite depressing.. feel so sad that she was sentence to death. But she's really really brave la. had subway for dinner...subway club foot long, my first meal of e day.. yummy..damn hungry.. then met up with cousin and pass her thing, then meet up with fly, van and van's fren.. suppose to go KTV but i was feel terrible. so cancel went drinking instead...haha..BUT i nvr drink hor... chivas, YUCK! somemore not feeling well.. so they help me to "dang" all e drink..hehe... still manage to train home.. oh ya.. Got my books finally.. Marley and me, and going home.. so damn happy.. was reading Marley on my way home.. nvr regret buying it.. :) cuddling my dog to slp now.. haven been carrying her in my arms for long.. she put on weight i think... haha...

Sleep tight, baby sashimi..

Time to wake up le!!

2006-08-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Had fun this weekend... Friday went KTV after work...most of e time i'm e one singing.. haha... then Sat went clubbing in e night with Fly, Wynne, Emily and Lina... had lotsa fun... it has been such a long time i club... thou nowadays i drink almost everyday... Ice were in everyone shirt and pants.. haha... forgot which idiot start it leh.. not me right? haha... aleast everyone were dancing that night... and we have lotsa free show.. lol... Feel so useless nowadays... have to bring my inhaler everywhere i go.. especially when i go drinking...shrugs..Went for supper after club... yes.. i lost my bet... and have to treat everyone supper... met up with chris and serene as well... haha.. still remember their face when they walk in happily lol.... but nobody eat much that night as well... help me save money.. haha...
Hmm... its time to "fan xing" le bah... shouldnt be drinking everyday anymore. Time to wake up and move on with life... what i'm doing doesnt make me any good either... alright its time to carry on with my plans and save up save up!!! Still thinking if i should switch to full time...haiz.... My dog poo in my room today... caned her... it has been such a looooong loooooong time i caned her.... then lock her inside e toilet... after dinner, let her out again.. but she dun seems to feel ashame at all leh... happily jumping here and there... arg.... feel that me and her have drifted... not as close as b4... maybe haven been spending time with her... call her also dun wanna hiu me now... idiotic dog... Shall stay home more this week. No more drinking, no more gg home late. more time with my dog...

Sashimi gal... I still do love you alot...

Sorry Sashimi

2006-08-10T01:52:00.000+08:00

Had a bad night last night... first time ever watched e firework ALONE!!! Damn e feeling.. dun ask me abt it.. and i'm so damn fucking hungry and angry.. almost lost my temper.. but too hungry and lazy to throw my tentrum...so forget it... Hmmm... finally everythings are settled... really really really disappointed... thou we are still not that close.. still it hurts... but nvm.. suan le.. won a bet.. 3 ice-cream feel so shaung... lalalala... watched "My super-ex girlfriend" not a bad show. met up with two of my fren after movie.. went for supper at e hong kong cafe... idiotic couple keep tempting me with e food.. arg.. cant take it. then they order e mango ice for me.. really damn nice.. but some "yaya" ppl control herself not to eat all e way.. haha... reached home finally got time to groom my own dog then keep grooming ppl's dog.. haha... idiot dog clean her ear scream here and there... till i beat then she keep her mouth shut... then while digging i notice she's tearing... feel so bad and guilty for what i've done.. haiz... now she dun wanna "hiu" me..keep giving me e bloody stare.. haiz... i think some ppl might know how she looks and how she gimme that bloody stare now... haha...

Sorry galgal.. nitez...

Depressed, living in hell...

2006-08-08T04:39:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... its seems like ever since i started my blog, i wrote nth good abt my life in it.. pretty sadden-ing... its just so complicated... I miss last thursday... even i'm not happy and got myself drunk.. just miss the ppl, the laughter, the fun. everything were still so good... but its seems pretty impossible now... Disappointed with two ppl.. but nth matters now.. its all over.. *i hope*
went to ikea today, bought some stuff...had my fav chicken wings, tried e salmon dun taste that bad afterall... went drinking, but i didnt even finish half of it... mummy boil soup for me today.. so damn happy.. but its becoz of my "skin prob" haha...it has been such a long time i drink soup.. i mean *mummy's soup* not pastamania so called "homemade goodness" yuck! she made me drink two bowl in one shot.. its nice la, but make me feel like a pregnant cow after that...oh ya.. she found out that i've got asthma and i do smoke sometimes... died... she says NO MORE ICE-CREAM, NO MORE COLD DRINKS and worst.. NO MORE SEAFOOD!!!!...so tell me.. what's e point of living??

Goodnight Mummy..

Sucky week

2006-08-07T02:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... here comes e weekend.. by right, I should be very happy and actually quite looking forward to it.. but then i forgot its this Sat is diff... so thursday went to KTV... got myself drunk cant even talk properly to my dad when i reached home, switched on e air con but did not close doors and window. holy shit... hope i will forget everything asap... oh ya.. forget to mention abt 4 hero that save me..fly, ah min, chris and ling.. poor ah min gotto take care of me whole night and poor ling have to send me all e way home.. thanks pal... as for e days for e week... it just sucks la... too much thing to type and i'm too lazy to type as well... everything just so sala... didnt expect that it will turn out to be in this way...shrugs...

my virgin post

2006-08-03T00:32:00.000+08:00

Ai yoyo... seriously.. i dunno how long this blog is gonna last.. been reading ppl's blog as bedtime story.. now my turn to write bedtime story.. hmm.. come to think of it.. i really know nuts abt e settings and e skin..i'm a completely idiot for com.. gonna have lots to learn.. o.k.. i catch up with my beauty slp first carry on tml...

Good night baby sashimi...